12/31/2010 the other side of the crash

i know im not the only one in this world feeling what i have inside
its not a single feeling
its universal and a concept we feel no one ever knows about
in this place where things are transmitted and received our brains
our box.......where feelings can be blocked still allow
things to dominate , so many songs i have heard in my life
casting the radio as if its never in existence

donations and common Courtesy
inflation and social demeanour


its the last day of the year
and everything is so dry
like sand paper nothing is easy to feel

im not getting far with this post
im not sober its 3 : 14

and in a short time i feel as if nothing will never be the same again

its been a good year and i say it with a sour taste because there is nothing wrong with liking sour things

i accept it all i bleed red no matter what happens
feelings may have been hurt but
my name stays the same
its who i am
i can forget love
and remember hate
but i love hate and forget love
its a daily battle

i wake up repeating the words
cars cars cars cars to forget my ex and my feelings of this girl
im not weak

i just really care
im a man of faith
where clouded windows can prove we have something inside to give

i wish i could write the universe down
i wish i could erase things that seem to not matter
i wish i could find some one that can really be who i am
and be who they are

flash these lights
headed to near fights
what have i done
off to the streets where there is no light
so i say to ssaints
where is god if i write his name
no prayer brings him to me
but i must pray to be happy after death ?
my mind is making life up

tiny slits between our words cut our nerves
so we break out and fight
becuase we cant command life

we are nothing but the things we leave in our mind


im talking shit
idc idk imy

x_x
its only 3:44 and the signal is fading

im done

ill ttyl blogger