nothing else to do but start anew and ruin a new life

say its never easy
but never speak about how difficult it seems

do you know what love is now

and know what we could be ?

i wish i could make something beautiful

make you fall in love again with me

the days i hated are the days i feel the most

come on now
lets regret this moment
becuase when its all over
and nothing is left to lose
ill cry over them

things got dim
but its the only way for love to bloom
just like old history

if this is the end of us
ill sing us this good bye song

but if you have any regrets

....................


come on , what will it take
last nights dreams
are little scenes
formed from the great
seam that make me warm just with the thought of you

im torn
outworn
built into another form
baby you were the perfect storm

if this is the end of us
ill sing us this good bye song

but if you have any regrets
......you might as well come home



but this door already closed

ill be nothing forever , ill still say never ...

your a looker, a visual hooker
how sexy you are and how blinding you can be
your a fighter, one that kills with looks and right hooks
how hard you bruise a man
your a lover , a liar and deceiver and a fool
how much i fell for it

laying down on that black couch
i held you like a small pouch
planes would fly by
and the living room would die down
whispering was a past time
late night Okeechobee racing was my way of getting out quick

we all want to be remembered
well i remember you
for the wrong reasons
its better when you wish to stay around
but you think its fun to fool around

do i still cross your mind
now that i moved on ?
do you have a bitter taste
that what you did was wrong ?
some day you will be nothing more then a sad song
gone wrong ..........

punkfest 2009 pics msp1488

will have them up soon!!!!!!!!! unless i forget .... :o

old friends in new times

the widow is fragile and slowly unwinding her string
as strong as she strings along
thats how strong she keeps it inside

the fragile spider next door
has more faith then saints and mothers of soldiers
she wishes the widow faith and love , she cares

she senses her ailing friends health and prays for her



happy birthday grandma , and im glad you have a friend , one i wish i was ......

some time

it will determine how much im worth
but i know my value will be valued by some one else


im done with you and the people i thought i could have something with
im done with the ideas of you and the thoughts of anyone

unknown this makes no sense

for the sake of god its unknown but its known to those who wait
the fights emerge and the silence fades
a river full of lives flows down the side of cities with zombies
the fireworks celebrate the death of independence
and the fires mean its all done
no turning back

how many steps back was it when i lost count of how many iv progressed ?

another mind is in mine
and another day is behind
with out a trace im holding on to another day

wishing i never were
im letting go of everything
im lost without a trace

nothing to remember juan by
its not like my typos were ever counted or noticed
its not like i changed lives

maybe i have

but those are the ones that are no longer in mine
:)
like i told some one the other day

"peoples misery ......... gives me inspiration"

if you dont understand then your not in the right mentality

some day when you know what sacrifice means you will