Monday, September 21, 2009

good bye

my life , his words
Steps Ascending

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im still trying to understand , but im giving up

into the blinding light/ autum leaves revisited

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9do1huU6mkU amv
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5sW3KRPHZmM thursday podcast

We stare into the blinding light to see what's between us. It's red and it's white like lies, like lipstick on last-look good-byes. The substance assimilating to watch the bodies burst into a string of lights. When there's nothing left, the party crashes and the rings come out form the jacket pockets into the blinding light. The fire is dying out and there's nothing left to burn except for ourselves. The cinema speaks as you take off your clothes and burst in dissimulation. Just let your body burst into a streak of light. When there's nothing left, the wedding crashes and the rings fall off, roll out the bedroom window into the blinding light. Please someone help me - take away my loneliness. Please someone fill me - take away my emptiness. Please someone touch me - take away my longing. And please someone, please someone... Please someone show me the light... Please someone - Take away my sadness. Please someone kill me – tear me up and throw me away. And the rings fall out like a silver snowfall into the blinding light. Just make your body burst into single lines. When there's nothing left, the heart rate crashes and the rings fall out as we turn each other into the blinding light. White night coming down. Silent armies all around. Deep sleep covering. Enemies in clean white sheets. (The sky went off-white, it snowed for fourteen years. The sunlight splintered into all out darkest fears.)

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The leaves will fallAnd so will youWhen you do, bury me under them tooSeconds pass; we’ll make it throughEventually we all go homeIt won’t be longIt won’t be longWe walk along the wire tied between horizonsYou close your eyes like it’s nothing at allThroughout the rise and fall, everything, everythingChanges, I will be here when you dieIt won’t be longIt won’t be longUntil we find our way homeDid you hear the trumpets play the day your father died?Did a violin swell those circles under your eyes?Did you play the part straight, like a marcher?Get lost in the beat, thinking and feelingDid the drums in the streets make the people dance?Or fall to their knees as the sound?Knock the leaves from the treesAs they fall from the branch, the look beautifulAs they hung in the airSpinning aroundDid you float in the air?Spinning aroundThere must be somewhere that cigarettes burn through the nightAnd the leaves don’t abandon their trees to the lightWhere the skies always clearAnd the summer never endsWon’t you take me there?The leaves will fallSo will youWhen you do, bury meUnder them tooSeconds pass; we’ll make it throughEventually we all are going home


lyrics to two amzing songs.


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today was a bad day , i never felt so unaccomplished
and i never knew feeling this low can be addressed so nicely
falling out like teeth
and living in a dream
but i regret nothing i say
in a worn out situation
and a broken rendition of love
its not what it used to be
and i feel like iv never been there
your in my heart
around my neck

and you wont let go anymore
when it reaches the end of the line
ill see my self , blackend , with broken hearts
when the gates come crashing down,
i will know you have moved on .
when kings back down
lives will change
when the queen dies
hope is lost


when city streets are silent
the mice come out to play
like ants that build
they never do things on purpose
like words that i put
you wont understand


not done.

more then you know

We surpassed every dream I had as a kid, and where do you go from there, you know?


becuase you weren't just a day of the week
you were a life time of help
you didn't do it for the fame
and when your preaching led you there you knew it was time to walk away
a new front for something misunderstood
a face for a body that no one feels

a band that lets you feel
you can relate even if you cant understand

ill never be done with this .