in silence

So its been a while since iv entered in this mode. It's completely harsh and no matter how many times I repeat its going to end, it just hits harder . I'm not a sucker, its just that in this particular situation I didn't realiz3 how much control I had on the palm of my hands to influence a positive living . I slowly grew a part that reached into her but I didn't.say a.thing I assumed and I then .just let it.crumble..my thoughts have crossed.a line and its based off the current living I'd my estate

It's been hard to express my solitude
It's only I who seems to understand

I am regretful
But not dead

I feel how much it was worth
I'm broke and not just money wise

I know
But knowing only affects so much

If I could control time
Then maybe you would.be mine

Suicide is.not an answer
But a fools solution

I'm no fool
But i acted as one

Anyhow

I learned and now I just stay in silence, there is so much I want to do.back.
I just can't wait to redeem myself
I deserve to make up for protecting my heart
And I know I will prove my name

Any way
I'll stay in silence because its what she wanted
Sigh
Lol its probably payback but I'm willing to repay with interest