Wednesday, August 18, 2010

animal instincts and a question of loss

I wrote my soul out a few days ago and iv never felt so accomplished about actually writing mot of my.day.
the blog.client didn't upload but I got lucky and saved.most of.it
so here it is with a revised end

ytoday was interesting
but a plan filled, and rewarding ,,for now....I hope, anyway I woke up extremely tired from last nights pi,
and I promised a friend I would help her with her fender. so her friend picked me up anid an hour later I was getting greasy.
we then go on a mission to buy glue because she decided to place back her left light back it,-_-, I'm sure you can assume what happened next,we headed out to Walmart where its always filled with big ass .
as I walk in,I mention the usual and I get a silly smile in return. I felt like a dirty man , blaming the fact that I didn't wash my arms and forearms after getting greasy lol. we get some 2 dollar glue and start walking towards foods. but nerves crawl up and massage you numb and you find yourself staring......like a hawk, everything didn't just blur out I zoned in to all details with a curiously willed mindset. its complex but I never got this close to the other guy....but it was an experience that made me think of natural instincts one pure soul can achieve like the lions in the jungle checking out its past enemy and wondering what makes me so god dam different
you can call it dwelling, but that only applies to those that impose it on themselvs. I mention to my lady friend like gossip and like always was not listening.... we later head back to electronics because her dog raped thier computer charger.despite the fact of our job benefits she still rather buy it here ,we snake through isle looking fishy. and sneak up towards computers,incidently she walks up to a tall white, with mixed brown hair and special shoes, a soft blue shirt and an employment tag , it was a person I might have seen before ,like dead skin falling off. He did not recognize my movement, and it was short lived .......while we walk contra the woman inside me whispers some serious questions especially one that my friend had to motion to ask and I simply said Idk girl lol , it was done just as fast as it started .
we tried glueing the head light back together but this girl.can do some serious damage lol, we met up with bumble bee where I drank a couple beers and hit the pipe I spoketh the truth to him it was nice to have a conversation. since Iv been.on my own for a while was so good that we cobtinued the talk in the walk to his car which was a mile away... we ended the night

While doing my first body job on a mustang my friend flower asked me about something she saw me wearing, I said somebody , and she went to step two , still talk ? No , did you fight ...... and I lit a called Turkish blend add I ignored by saying I don't know , what bothered me was the fact that I felt just the way I did as I did with cable (no names mentioned)
At least this time it was more valid, I lost a friend ? Even worse.I still miss her day to day despite I'm not holding on to anything just sonethings that were genuine,
I have nothing else to say at the moment

So to the point
It was a great day.
Considering my friend lives. A few.doors down from.doughs cousins house, considering encounters and.getting attacked by a cute pit rowler looking dog

But just because you can drink water.doesn't mean you can't drown



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