without meaning I am

can barely
Don't want to hear it
I want
Run and hide
Just
.

I felt something in reverse
Nothing is fake
Description of something
It's all out of place
Yesterday
I woke up 9 times

Anything
I hum it out
I'm no longer involved
So why notice differences
Subtle urge
... but no real intention


Resolving my feelings
Since I'm the,only one dealing
Reverberated

On and on and on
It will end

Today I woke up
Multiple times
I must be on my last life
Hours to be fully awake

I guess death won't even accept me

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.............its too early

To have my chest shaved

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language of love

Sola sensi hodie de te cogito

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The heart keeps us alive without question or convincing

Our minds ask why

Why question the idea of living

Is death so much better
Because we predict
Nothing else can go wrong

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you

I should have
Could have
but if I had the chance would i
I have no one to say
Have faith on me
I should have never let you go

But I never did
These moments have me feeling
Left outside
While it pours
It covers my sight on white


Like I said
I never will
And when I get a chance
I'll do everything I never said


So I don't believe in anything you say
Because its only been that

Things you say

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no title

Iv been drawing blanks
I'm not sure if its my inner self
Or
Outside influences
Or maybe its the lack of.people
I don't know

Maybe I'm being extreme
Maybe I'm not taking it serious
I'm probably just
Thinking about things too much

I'm sure people know what it means
I'm sure people assume
Some laugh

Some steal
Some deal
But everyone says everyone isnt

I want key lime pie

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finding reasons

i wrote various drafts here

and came to the conclusion

everything i ever cared about is an illusion

everyone i ever loved became an intrusion

everywhere is not far if i tried

everything is nothing

nothing is everything

is everything nothing
or
is nothing everything

when i close my eyes

words dont mean a thing

and i cant explain

why i feel like

im still trying to find an excuse to write about us

Juan

Im the kind of person
Too loyal
Dedicated at worst
Compassionate at best

Tides are influenced by my ideas
Repeating.so bleak
So lonely as.change
She should have never been

Most situations aside
It's a little like being alive
The rest were caused from waiting
Hating
These thoughts belong too you


Late response
Delayed with patience
It echoes in my mind


aNDddd I
Wish I could please you
Knowing I'm not seeing you
I'm left aside to abide

Climax moments
Flow out our mouths
And into our box

And if it makes you happy
I'm not
I'm not myself
I'm gone in a part of you

Will I ever see the sky
I can't see past the dust
Yea I guess your nothing but lust


And if it makes you worry
I might have slid on the knife
Turning and stretching
Moments in forgetting

It's a little of what I might be

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her truth

Sometimes I get lonely
That's when you see smiles
Ask ne if I care
And ill reply with a thousand excuses

A man In pain
And my heart slows down
Thoughts manipulate into physical reactions
Is that why i can't breathe ?

I can't
Wrap my
Feelings into
One more line
So ill just cross the I

Love has gone now that I know what you want to say
My throat hurts because Iv held so acid
This is all making me sick

Grandma if I could change this I would

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step one

I keep an active mind to distract from the evil around,my temple
My home is in shards reflecting those who have seen it

Iv had to deal with moments where I can't stand the idea of losing what I havnt even earned

Yeeeeea
I'm still dealing

So yea maybe ill stay a little longer

What's going through my fingers

A secret passage for us

So don't make it useless

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this and that

Inside
With actions
My art is your caption
Soul deprived
Heart in mind
Shut up
Sonetimes
I feel like a sun set
Looking in one direction
Slowling leaving darkness on my trail

What's going through my heart
It feels like iv lost my hands
And I can't hold on
These Arnt thoughts of ending it

So I make it an issue to miss you
So what do I. make.of this
No body is home

Iv.got lies to tell you
And moods to share
When you talk
I listen
And I like it
I suggest we try and save
Because we never know when a checkpoint IS needed

Yea I heard you
But I'm not sure I listened
Iv got a million things I can do
But my actions end with you

For the one waiting
I'm not afraid
I'm in need of your capture
Rushing through my head
My chest burns another hole


I'm lost in consideration

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?

I Felt the ground shake

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you either swallow or you can

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after before

I have so much to say, things are moving ahead. With so much happening iv had too much time alone , its sad because I can't help but feel like I pushed everyone away, but i realized that's people just don't fit. And the ones I could have made room for..... it makes me feel like I'm drowning in shallow waters

after I realize
my lungs become
Moist with realization

need to stop
Writing in this
It gets nowhere

It's left me pretending

Clinging to my weaknesses
Losing your identity



















1212 bunny lol

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honesty will set you free.... no it just makes you look weak

It would be better if I were leaving
Every day
I die
Trying to find meaning

To wartch the day start without you
Makes things not feel true
So many ways to translate
But everything seems like waste

The way iv gone about this
Has me left behind
Maybe my heart is dying to press rewind

This is what I feel
Wishing to break things
To pretend I'm real

I'm left watching blinking lights
Accepting excuses
To take a win

So I'm dying for your words


The way I feel
A hundred times over

Now your presence is haunting me
My mind taunting me

This isn't The better off I intended

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an eye em u

Days drag on
Today I though of you
Yesterday too
The silence crushing
My blue face is fading

I chose memories
i knew would hurt
But its at my expense
But I'm still here to refuse these days
Where I don't feel educated
Never said bye

My redemption
It's red lights out
As you drive
The way
Iv lived
A hundred times
But it still makes no sense

I'm trying
I should be careful
But sometimes you can't control your heart
So I know it sounds unreal
But I have a friend

A ghost of you
So many days iv been blind ?
Just comatose
Iv realized
I wasn't blinded
I wasn't an idiot
I wasn't in fear
Never in this deep for someone

I experience living
But I numbed
It felt like it was all a dream
I.really did go up a stream
I giggle at your window filled steam
Filled it like a stream
Spider covered.screams
Been caught without a defense
Frequencies between you and I

Said this was over with
Distence and resistance
Get to mine
I'll know the signs
Let's get this over

Id like to get some sleep eventually

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I'm sloppy and aroused
I can't hold myself straight
Just to see who you are
Got us this far
Just holding to you
Makes this world gone

By the time the sun is there
There's absolutely nothing left but heaven
No longer afraid
I'm ready for more of you

So slow down
I'll be around
Only if you want me too
Redefine our sayings
So we don't read between the lines

So looking down the backside
I'm considering our friendship some more
You make me so blue
Urges for you

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I'm ficking GOHn
I'm watching red v blue while
Iv have done nothing but eat peanut bitter jelly sandwhiches pizza peanut butter crunch and resses cups x_x

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daily

It feels as I have nothing to understand
My feelings just waste
Ny feelings numb
Laying in bed
Just to fall back to sleep

My headphones
Can push me to rest
But I fight back
Because my daily living
I'm slowly decaying
slowing fading
And as each thought is thought about
My actions show death

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there's sonesing I need to say ca

I can't and if I could I wouldn't
Tell you much
It's still for me to keep
But sometimes
At times
Not many l
Little moments seconds
That , feel like ...its all still
Time is no longer valid

I wonder what I want with you
Since I know what I.can do with you
It's a pleasure
One we once both accepted untimely
As experiences have taught me by taking
I have given to make thier time a memory

So alone I sit outside
A stone at best
Cars lullaby my inner shell
And greys turns to my wants
Pavement burned with inches of pain
So ill assume
Hold my breath
Untill my skin gets tight
And wonder how far
My mind can take me

Leave it behind
With each footstep
Something will pass by
Held up high
I hum tones of my steps
Knowing I'm keeping my beats in check
My path is made
I march in form
Chin up
Moon shine every few steps
We were born to lead
Without crashing down
We will fail


Your much more then just a memory

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Linkin Park - "Waiting For The End" with lyrics

yup

I am bored, incredibly fucking bored, I want to do something ...... I thought about going out but im broke. I thought about rocking out, but i don't have any rocks to hang out with, and I don't like ubdomesticated rocks , they start to leave powdery white/grey scratches and they chip all over the place,yea..... I'm not down with that stuff. I don't hang like that bro, shits wack duuude ....

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I look up from the grown
And I sense my body
I'm floating
Far below where I know my soul is waiting

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momentary

.Been working and already made some bad financial decisions ,i already learned plenty from it .

Iv been lost with people. Or maybe I'm not interesting enough.
The pressure every morning
I forget its credibility
A type of questioning that teases you so you then forget if your either a falling structure of your friends, or just not be interesting as they made me appear , although the remaining ones have been interesting .

I'm slowly creeping
Brakes loose
So I have to push harder

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brain

Roads of ice
Cover sand
And the dry atmosphere
It's stinks of burnt destruction

It's covered with miles of panic
A shockwave of instincts
The light post will.host check points
This city
Concrete idol
Reality war games

Arise from downpours
And shine with glory
We must be solid like a tower
Because we are the back bone of this story

We sit like we are fused
Back, once when we felt the sun
Clouds were clean and visible
We can't tell pollution from night sky

Day or night
Even in plain sight
I can't see what's ahead

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CPU

It's Sunday ........11 past 2 am and I work in the morning, I'm anxious to get things started with my car. Not sire when ill get things running but its all set just need the correct body tech and ill be on my way , I already know what I want to do first when I get her back ! Go on a date ! ,.iv been dying to romance a lady for a while ! So today at work I was taken back at how good my co worker looked with her brown blond hair, definitely craving some two scoops haha, I need to list some weight iv let go but very mildly, honestly its a good size I have a super. Sexy ass face , I'm squishy but tender , and i shower.
I feel like a robot is in my skull...

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