Not the best way to open you up

I can not express
Nor can I demonstrate,
.....Or connect us in any way
To indulgde
Swallow my soul
Grab me by the throat
Watch me fade away then release me to see me smile to watch you let me go
Because I know you
I know that it may cone as a surprise but
I am confused
Don't give in living in this world
Like violent swirls
We confine in things we relate to.
But we can only relate when you open that strong gate