The workforce

I work and work
Never scream that my back hurts
So I sit up and sell my soul
Wisphers over shadow
And wallets empty like ruthless lovers

Every product numbered like cattle
Every customer , statistics to be controlled someday

Every two weeks I get my prize
My hard work is appreciated to the lowest
Possible manner
With respect I accept
With anger I scream
By with gratitude I cry
I have.a job

Glowstik

In waiting for my glow to blend out
Slowly melt
Vanish into the sky
Blend into space

My core can Only last so long

Love

Has sent me around the world
But it never saved me
It showed me curses
It burned me alive
Never said sorry
Even while I waited for god
You think it's nothing more then patience
It's nothing but consequence

Love won't let me sleep
So I cut my soul
Into bookmarks
And I let people read me
Iv never been so open to pain
Love won't let us sleep

&
It doesn't Matter

It. Is crazy....

Like the last words you said for me to read

Because you're still there

I hate you

I really hate you


Love has only led me to lonelyness

The tick if the clock is something I chase
In my room ,alone

And sun light shadows are a game

Bed covers are forts

And pillows are clouds

I'm still in a nightmare

I hide my map and guidelines

Because i'm still waiting for a rescue team

Life is nothing but cruel and it burns my soul
Ashes of newspaper burn slower
And I'll never forget how it felt

You were the cancer girl

I

Still remember she loved it when

I slowly walked behind her
And found a way to make her smile

When I always showed up to her house

When I always lost to her playing off road racing

When I wispherd her our secret love word

When I told her I'll always be there

When I promised her I'll be there

When I proved to her that I was there

But

I loved it when she lied and said

I will never leave you

I'm spinning around like faith thrown up in the air

And I stoped screaming I swear

I'll always remember

Waiting to forget

Too her

It warms you
And it's cold
We try to find a well meant thought
When I come back
There are ashes in the shadow
When we see ourselves this time
One of us will laugh

Everyone we love
Surrounds


Everyone we love
The ones that are always around

To my first love
It will always heal
And I'll stay and take the deal

Even if in a million years
I'm dropping glass
Your love is something I'm glad was taken away from me

Bye

The best Tuesday iv ever had

So I waited all day but no contact
So I make a move
Things were in action

Then patience kicked in
Patience


Time
And
Emotions
Pause

Then it rains
15$ gone

Then in search for a bank
Even though it was late
We still continued
Walking into the venue we can hear geoff
Preach

Finding out
Thursday
Put thier show ahead of another
To allow them to play ,

Despite missing more then half of the show
I felt connected
Seeing a smile of my friends face
Fightig off a mosh pit
It was amazing


Good friends never die
And it's proof ba experiences are best shared with true friends

No ticket sign
But

It was the best Tuesday I ever had

I want to see it another a way

The way I am is getting me nowhere
Even though I care
Everythig isn't fair


If there is a god
My heart of gold
Would have been worth somethig

I don't know what to be

I see the reason to move on


I don't know how to change from being me

I started to get lost along my way

I can't wait for beauty to shine my day

i will never understand , well i do but its my secret , today its about friends ?

im fed up by it
no one seems to be honest
nor wants to be
i dont know how friendships last
with my luck
im surprised i had a relationship

lol

any way this isnt a poem or anything
just the way i talk
everything always comes down
and like poems
my life always ends at the bottom
even when i write the most beautiful thing
or describe how much i enjoyed my past

you can see nothing ever changes
ill be honest with an honest question
ill even be blunt right now
i hate my friends lol

well sorta , i hate most people that consider themselves my friends
especially when i end up missing
i never worry about who is where
even though i wouldn't mind the interaction
i am human and love to talk
but how come when i have to say something
everyone never searches for me
it seems that my voice only counts when people
need to add another person to their , i know that guy but nothing about him , but i know more people then you do , list


sigh

i hate myself , because i am the one that understands where life is going
id rather die tonight then lie again .