iv had alot to do in my young life
im 21 but iv had the chances to attend many art schools , medical schools , etc
i had the chance to destroy my life , destroy others and kill everything around me
iv fought for my beliefs , iv cried becuase iv been wronged and iv given up on alot
but i never gave up on giving forward and being as honesnt as i can be even if i dont get inside .
the person i ever trusted the most has left me
iv had things stolen from me
iv been mocked and pushed down
iv almost been homeless , almost killed many times
and live in the hospital for days when i though i was mentally dying
i dont want much in life other then the things i feel would make me happy , i dont want a supermodel
or a millionaire but obviously being financially stable would be nice lol
i never expect more then a thank you from any one , and i never back down from a good argument but
im wise enough to appreciate the fight and understand why
but there are people out there and know how satisfying wearing your favorite jeans and sweater
those are the people that will change the world
not the ones that live day to day saying but doing
it might not be something to impact the world but it will impact some one in some way
for me one of the few things other then soup , mazda , and abstract art , and a few other things , has been the band thursday
i finnaly saw them after 8 years
i respect them as people more then a band becuase thats what they are
i can relate to alot of what they sing and i learned from everything they do
fuck this just read the dam thing :) i hope some one does
and i hope some one learns from how i feel
i still miss my ex , but i know im better off now................
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"I've just always felt like it's really hard to express yourself when you're not engaged in trying to help people be free."
geoff rickly
special thanks to adelyn milian :) for some input ( good ones too not that shitty ones everyone else gives ) and corrections , and .....alot of disagreement
and Geoff , last Tuesday 3_17_09 really opened my eyes ....... i appreciate everything you guys have done for me .
the social destruction of feelings
i know how bad it feels
to lose hope to a fire set by a friendly unknown
when your other is unaware of your presence in plain sight
the sacrifice becomes unclear
and they both win tonight
a set of stairs that lead up and down
just like the emotions of a broken heart mending
when you lose hope you want to take it back
and reconstruct the will of hope
as i walk down the street wondering why
i never looked up and said why
i see people argue , fight , smile , destroy and tear people apart
but i never seemed to give in
right on the edge of this fight
i never stopped to say good bye
the love you gave to me was nothing more then pure
and the love i gave back was nothing less of me
its something we can all relate too
but its nothing they ever gave you
when you think about being the one being swallowed alive
it makes it hard to swallow your pride
when i think about myself and where iv been the past years
i see nothing any more
a sad truth
but at least i know i have something to look forward to
becuase its something we all have in common
the common thought of being alive
being a person
crying at night becuase they left you for some one else
not being able to pay your rent
starving
being alone even when your waiting in line for food stamps
the
unknown
feeling
of
compassion
its the thought of common exsistence
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